All of Us Strangers (2023)

One night, in his nearly empty tower block in modern London, Adam unexpectedly encounters a mysterious neighbour named Harry, who disrupts the rhythm of his daily life.

Overview

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Poster for the 2023 movie All of Us Strangers showing two men’s faces overlaid on a blurred cityscape at night, with the film title in large pink letters at the bottom.

Length: 105 minutes
Released: 22nd December 2023
Rating: 7.463 out of 10 from 772 users
MPAA Rating: R – Under 17 requires accompanying parent or adult guardian. Contains some adult material. Parents are urged to learn more about the film before listening or reading with their young children.
Language: English
Director: Andrew Haigh
Creator: Andrew Haigh,Taichi Yamada
Actors: Andrew Scott, Paul Mescal, Carter John Grout, Jamie Bell, Claire Foy
TagLine: All of us hurt. All of us hope. All of us love.

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All of Us Strangers (2023) Trailer

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Hello.
Hi.

Saw you looking at me from the street.

I'm assuming you're not with anyone.

Never see you with anyone.

This your mum and dad?

Yeah.

They died just before I was 12.

I'm trying to write about them at the

moment.

How's it going?

Strangely.

Hi.

Hi.

Is this real?

Does it feel real?

Our boy's back home.

Our son.

Look at you.

You were just a boy.

And now you're not.

It was a long time ago.

Yeah, I don't think that matters.

I've always felt like a stranger in my

own family.

I'm always scared of something.

Always running away, do you remember?

Sorry I never came in your room when

you were crying.

It's funny, it doesn't take much...

...to make you feel the way you felt

back there again.

Do you think you'd like to be in

love with him?

I'd always felt alone.

This is a new feeling.

You and me.

You and me.

Together.

Into the world.

Review for All of Us Strangers (2023)

There are movies you watch, and then there are movies that stick with you—All of Us Strangers is one of the latter. Andrew Haigh has made something very personal, very soft, and almost like a ghost in how it makes you feel. Watching it felt like walking into a memory, one that’s both known and strange, like a dream that stays even after you wake.


My Time With The Movie

From the first scene, I could feel the deep quiet around Adam (Andrew Scott). There’s something haunting about his life—living in a nearly empty London tower, writing about a past he can’t seem to leave behind. His world is soft and far away, as if he’s just passing through life, not really living it.

Then Harry (Paul Mescal) comes in, a stranger who sees Adam’s aloneness and reaches out to him in a way that feels both urgent and very human.

Picture of Paul Mescal as Harry
Adam and Harry sit on a floor in front of a large window with an urban view. Its dimly lit, suggesting dawn or dusk. One person wears a sweater and shorts, while the other wears a jacket and jeans. They appear to be having a casual conversation or drink.

Their bond is quick, but not rushed. Haigh lets their closeness grow slowly, making every look, every pause, every touch matter. It’s rare to see queer love shown with such softness and truth, without stereotyps and full of real feeling.

But then there’s the other part of the story—Adam’s strange meetings with his long-gone parents (Claire Foy and Jamie Bell). These parts are where the movie goes beyond real life and into something more dream-like. Watching Adam sit at the kitchen table with his mum and dad, talking to them like they never left, was truly captivating.

A man (Jamie Bell) wearing a brown leather jacket and red shirt stands in a field at dusk, looking forward with hands by his sides. Another person is visible in the blurry background, wearing a dark jacket and blue jeans, with trees and a cloudy sky behind them.

The movie never fully explains these parts—are they ghosts? Are they memories? Or is this Adam’s way of healing? The mystery only makes the movie hit harder, making it feel like a soft hint of grief rather than a loud cry of sadness.


What Stood Out to Me

Andrew Scott’s Performance

I’ve always liked Andrew’s work, but here, he gives something really special. His Adam is so many-layered. There’s a silent sadness in his eyes, a slow way he moves, as if he’s been keeping feelings inside that are now close to coming out. Every time he’s with his parents, I felt my own heart squeeze. It’s the kind of acting that doesn’t need big speeches or big moments; it shines in the quiet, in the small gaps between words.

Paul Mescal’s Impact

Paul Mescal’s Harry is just right against Adam’s quiet sadness. He’s open yet sure, wanting yet careful.

His link with Scott is strong—there’s a truth in how they are together that feels so real, so natural. Watching their love grow was one of the most touching parts of the movie.

The Look & Sound

The views are stunning. The difference between Adam’s cold, modern flat and the warm light of his old home is sharp. Each scene is carefully made, with soft light that adds to the dreamy feel. The sound is just as gentle—long quiet parts, soft background sounds, and a beautifully simple score by Emilie Levienaise-Farrouch make the movie feel like a close whisper, not a loud shout.

Themes That Hit Me Hard

  • Grief and Memory – The way the past stays, not letting go, was something I really felt. Adam’s journey isn’t just about facing his parents—it’s about finding peace with himself.
  • Loneliness and Connection – This movie shows the deep pain of being alone in a way that feels very real. The space between Adam’s alone-ness and his need for closeness is at the center of the story.
  • Queer Love & Acceptance – By changing the original book to have a queer main character, the write, Haigh adds a whole new layer of meaning. Adam’s fight isn’t just about love—it’s about accepting himself, about the burden of growing up in a world that didn’t always welcome him.

Final Thoughts

When the credits came, I just sat there, feeling the emotions flow over me. All of Us Strangers isn’t just a movie—it’s an experience. It’s deeply sad yet oddly comforting, like a soft reminder that love, in all its shapes, never really leaves us.

Would I recommend it? Without hesitation. But be prepared—it’s the kind of film that lingers in your bones long after you’ve left the cinema.

Rating: 9.5/10


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[somber music playing]
[music swells]

[man on TV] Meanwhile, work goes on for the Brits

who relocated to the Costa.

Running a bar in the sun is the classic British dream.

It can easily turn into a nightmare,

but Gary and Cherry from Macclesfield

have made it work.

- The Bamboo Bar is a success. - [people shout indistinctly on TV]

[inhales deeply]

[exhales softly]

[yawns]

[fridge whirring]

[fire alarm beeping]

[beeping continues]

[alarm continues beeping]

[car horn blares]

["The Power of Love" playing on TV]

[singing on TV] ♪ Ay, ay, ay, ay ♪

[doorbell ringing]

♪ Feels like fire ♪

♪ I'm so in love with you ♪

[knocking at door]

[singing stops]

[door opens]

Hello.

Hello.

I saw you looking at me from the street.

I've seen you a bunch of times

coming and going with your head down.

One day, it'll be for real, that alarm.

- [chuckles] - [Adam] Hmm.

We're basically the only ones here.

Can you fucking believe that?

I mean, they haven't got security guards yet.

I'm Harry.

Adam.

How do you cope?

With, with what?

Listen.

[low rumbling]

[chuckles]

It's so quiet.

I mean, London's out there,

but we can't hear a fucking thing.

[sighs]

[clicks tongue] I play music, right,

but it's worse when it ends.

Yeah, I even got one of those, um,

white noise machines, right?

But it's like there's someone

in the corner of the room whispering about me.

I mean, we can't even open, the windows, but I guess

they don't really want us to jump.

It's bad for business. You know,

bodies broken on the concrete.

I mean, who's gonna move in then? [chuckles]

Drink?

It's Japanese.

It's meant to be the best in the world,

but I, I couldn't tell you why, so...

- No, thanks. - Okay, um...

Okay. How about I come in anyway?

If not for a drink,

then for whatever else you might want.

Um...

I don't think that's a good idea.

[chuckles] Do I scare you?

No.

We don't have to do anything if I'm not your type.

[softly] There's vampires at my door.

Huh.

[pensive music playing]

[elevator bell dings]

[somber music playing]

[upbeat music playing on radio]

[keyboard clacking]

- [clattering] - [upbeat music continues]

- [music on radio fades out] - [ominous music playing]

[lighter clatters]

[sighs]

[tense music playing]

[indistinct announcement on PA]

[train rumbles past]

[birds chirping]

[pensive music playing]

[children speaking indistinctly]

[leaves rustling]

[insects chittering]

[breathes deeply]

[bottles clink]

[tires screeching]

[screeching recedes]

Hi.

Hi.

I thought something strong for a night like this.

No thanks.

Shall we go?

- [lighter clicks] - Go where?

Home.

[doorbell rings]

She's gonna be over the moon to see ya.

Guess who I found loitering in the park.

[woman] Is it him?

Oh, yeah, it's definitely him.

Look in his eyes.

Yes, it is you.

Hi.

Hi.

Don't just stand there. Get yourself inside.

[Dad] So, where are you living now?

Not around here, I'm sure.

[Adam] Uh... I'm, I'm in London.

- [Mum] Fancy. - [Dad] Whereabouts?

[Mum] Do you live by yourself?

[Dad] Do you own your own place?

Uh, yeah, it's just a, it's just a flat.

What did I tell ya? What did I tell ya?

I told you he'd be doing well for himself, didn't I?

Can't be cheap living up there in the smoke.

And what is it that you do?

- I'm a writer. - And what did I tell you?

No, no, no.

I'm not particularly rich or anything. Not really.

Well, I always knew you'd be creative.

And what kind of writer are you?

You know how I love, um, Stephen King.

Carrie, Cujo, Different Seasons.

No, no, no. I'm not a proper writer.

I, I write scripts.

Uh, for film, TV. When I have to.

[chuckles] A writer.

God, this is so bloody exciting.

If I knew the neighbors, I'd run over and I'd tell them right now.

I've always said that writers know less about the real world

- than almost anyone else. - [Mum] Mmm.

What the hell would you know?

- [Adam chuckles] - You can barely write

- joined up. - That's true. But...

[Mum exhales]

A writer.

Our son.

[Dad] We're very bloody pleased

to see you doing so well, then.

Yeah.

Enough of that poofy shit.

- Our boy's back home. - [Mum] Hmm.

What are you puttin' on?

[Dad] Oh, you'll see.

["Is This Love" by Alison Moyet playing]

[Dad groans, exhales]

[Mum] Oh, do you remember

your little red car that you had?

You loved it and you wanted

to take it out onto the main road,

and drive it with all the big cars.

[Adam] Yeah. That's my first memory, actually.

[Dad] It was a Ford Granada that hit him, wasn't it?

- No, it, it was... - Yeah. It was.

It was racing green. Do you remember that?

- [Mum] Mmm. - [Dad] It, it, flung you

like a rag doll. You went so high up in the air.

- I'll never forget it. - Oh, but you were fine, though.

You were fine. You had a couple of bruises.

I think they thought I was exaggerating when I took you in.

What about that one Bonfire Night

when you lost it?

You remember that Bonfire Night?

How old were you? Six?

[Mum] No, he was not. He was older than that.

[Dad] Well, when the fireworks went off,

poor boy, started screaming and howling.

- I had to carry him all the way home. - [Adam] You did?

Yeah. You fell asleep on my shoulder.

I don't remember that.

[Dad] You were, you were really beside yourself.

You were really having a hard time,

and I was trying,

we were just trying to get you to enjoy the fireworks.

And you didn't...

[Mum] You've always been a sensitive boy, haven't you?

[Adam] Maybe.

Are you still afraid of fireworks now?

- [Adam chuckles] No! - [Mum] Do you know who you sound like?

- You sound just like my mother. - He does.

- Doesn't he? You noticed that? - [Dad] Yeah, no, he does.

[Mum] You did say something earlier.

[Dad] Yeah. It's when, it's when you said,

it's when you said, "I'm not a proper writer."

- [Mum] Say it again. - [Dad] Go on.

- [Mum] Say it again. - [Adam] Don't make me say it.

- [Dad] Just say it. - [Mum] Say, "a proper writer," again.

[Adam] Like Nan or like me?

- [Dad] Say it like you. Say it like you. - [Mum] "Like Nan or like me." [laughs]

It's so bloody lovely to see you again.

[Adam] Yeah.

Weren't sure if we ever would.

Here you are.

Here I am.

Come back soon, hmm?

One of us will be in.

Hmm?

Please.

Yeah, I will.

Good.

[Mum shivers]

- Let's go in, eh? - Night.

- Good night, sweetheart. - Good night, son.

Night.

[pensive music playing]

- Hello. - Hi.

I'm really sorry about the other night.

Oh, that's all right.

Don't worry about it.

- [elevator thuds] - See ya.

See ya.

I actually do like whiskey if you want, um,

wanna have a drink or...

[elevator doors close]

[exhales]

[clock ticking]

[grunts]

[sighs]

["Build" by the Housemartins playing on record player]

[keyboard clacking]

♪ Clambering men in big bad boots ♪

♪ Dug up my den, dug up my roots ♪

♪ Treated us like plasticine town ♪

[pen clicking]

♪ They built us up and knocked us down ♪

♪ From Meccano to Legoland ♪

♪ Here they come with a brick in their hand ♪

♪ Men with heads filled up with sand ♪

♪ Let's build... ♪

♪ Let's build a house... ♪

[Adam] Hi.

[music stops]

[Harry] Hello.

- Hi. - [elevator dings]

[chuckles] Hi.

- Do you wanna come in? - [Harry] Sure.

[Adam] Do you want a drink?

Yeah, what have you got?

Uh... I got vodka and some beer.

I got some weed if you prefer that.

Yeah, weed's better.

I'm off alcohol...

Do you like living here?

[Adam] I think I'll like it more

when people move in.

If people move in.

You got friends nearby?

No, not really.

Do you?

No, not really.

Most of my friends have moved out of London.

Wanna have gardens for their kids,

and they want to be near the grandparents so they can look after the kids.

[Harry] I'm guessing you didn't want to move too?

Uh, no.

What am I gonna do in Dorking?

It's not for people like me.

I'm just checking. You are queer, right?

- [both chuckling] - Yeah. Yeah.

- [Harry] That's good. - [chuckles]

Or gay.

- Right. - Queer, I'm not...

I can't get used to calling myself queer.

- It was always such an insult. - Hmm.

It's probably why we hate "gay" so much now.

I mean, it was always like, um,

[chuckles] Uh "Your haircut's gay,"

or "This sofa's gay,"

"Your trainers are gay,"

"Your schoolbag's gay." [shorts]

Yeah.

Queer does feel polite, somehow, though, you know.

It's like, um...

I don't know, it's like

all the dick sucking's been taken out.

[both chuckling]

Yeah. I'm assuming you're not with anyone.

I never see you with anyone.

- No. - No.

You often single?

- Am I often single? - Mmm-hmm.

Uh...

I suppose so. Yeah.

- Are you? - Yeah.

Yeah, but not for want of trying.

[clicks tongue]

How about I kiss ya?

Yeah, all right.

[both moaning]

[Adam] Ooh! [coughs]

- [clears throat] Sorry. - No.

- You all right? - No. Yeah, yeah.

- Just haven't done... - [laughs]

I haven't done this in a while.

I have to remember to, remember to breathe.

- Okay. - Yeah, yeah. It's okay.

Okay.

- It's okay. - You all right?

[Adam] Uh-huh.

Yeah.

[Harry grunts]

[music builds]

[Harry chuckles]

[Adam chuckles]

[Harry chuckles]

[chuckles]

[Harry] Is this you?

Afraid it is.

You were cute.

I hate my photos.

I was a fat kid.

Right, but,

when you're a fat kid, no one asks

why you don't have a girlfriend.

[both chuckling]

We'd have been friends for sure, though.

Bunked off football to spy on the boys.

Is this your dad?

Yeah.

He's handsome.

Yeah.

I'm... I'm trying to write about them at the moment.

Is that what you do?

[Adam] Yeah.

[Harry] How's it going?

[Adam] Uh, strangely.

I don't see my dad much.

Do you, do you see yours, no?

No, they died.

Just before I was twelve.

[Harry] Both of them?

Yeah. Yeah, car crash.

Not the most original of deaths.

[chuckles]

I'm really sorry.

No, thanks, it was a long time ago.

Yeah, I don't think that matters.

Well.

I'd like to see you again.

Yeah, okay.

I could stay the night if you...

How about, actually, better idea...

Not tonight. Yeah?

No, no. I would like to s...

- No, you... - I would like to see you again.

- you don't need to explain. - I'm just...

Okay?

- [pensive music playing] - [Adam] Okay.

Thanks.

[train compartment clattering]

[rain pattering]

[doorbell ringing]

Sweetheart, you came back.

Of course I came back.

Jesus, you're sodden.

Come on, take it all off.

No, I'm, I'm not taking my clothes off.

Don't be silly, it's only me. Come on, arms up.

I'll put them in the dryer.

It's just me today. Is that all right?

- Yeah, of course it is. - Good.

There's so much I want to know.

I want to hear everything.

Right, go on. Upstairs, get changed.

My goodness. This is so exciting.

[chuckles]

[snickers]

[footsteps approaching]

[knocking on door]

[both chuckling]

[Mum] Suppose nothing's gonna fit you anymore, is it?

- Nope. - [Mum chuckles]

Yeah. Well, I brought you some of your dad's things instead.

- Okay. - [clicks tongue] Oh, look.

Come on, take these off as well,

and I'll put them in to dry with the rest.

- Uh... - [Mum sighs]

Oh, will you take them off, Adam?

Honestly.

[chuckles]

God, look at you.

What?

You were just a boy.

And now you're not.

No.

You look totally different, but it's still you.

Well, I thought you'd be hairier.

- Like your dad. - [chuckles]

Okay, sorry.

[Mum chuckles]

I like a hairy chest, myself.

[Adam chuckles] Okay.

Christ, you know who you remind me of?

Uh, who?

You look just like my dad.

Really?

[Mum] Hmm.

How I remember him anyway, when I was a little girl.

God, isn't that mad?

It's like seeing you both at exactly the same time.

[timer dings]

[gasps] Oh.

I've made your favorite. Well, I hope it's still your favorite.

I'll just go and pop the kettle on,

and then you can tell me everything.

[pensive music playing]

Delicious.

[Mum] Good.

Now, your dad told me not to ask,

and I don't see a wedding ring,

so I'm presuming you're not married,

but have you got a girlfriend?

Hmm?

I'm picturing her with brown hair,

not too skinny.

Smart, obviously.

Well?

Well, what?

[Mum] Do you?

I don't have a girlfriend. No.

That's a shame.

I don't have a girlfriend because I'm not into girls,

[clears throat] into women.

What do you mean?

I mean...

I'm gay. [chuckles]

As in homosexual?

As in that, yeah.

- Really? - Yeah.

Since when?

Uh, since a long time.

How long?

Forever.

You don't look gay.

Well, I'm not sure what that means.

It means what it means. You know what it means.

[Adam chuckles]

Well, bet you're glad

you don't know the neighbors now.

Hmm. I must admit I'm a bit surprised.

Not really sure what I feel about it.

What, you didn't, didn't think it would be a possibility?

No, of course not.

What parent wants to think that about their child?

No parent that I know.

Well, I'm very okay with it, so.

But aren't people nasty to you?

Um, no, no.

No, things are different now.

What, so they aren't nasty?

Not out loud, anyway.

Well, does everybody know?

I mean, are you open about it? I mean...

I don't know, down the High Street at WHSmith's?

Well, it depends on the, on the street.

Yeah. Everybody knows, everyone's fine.

Well, don't you want to get married and have kids?

I can have kids.

Men can marry. Women, too.

What, to each other?

- Yeah. - Why?

What do you mean "why"?

Well, isn't that like having your cake and eating it?

So, do you want to get married and have kids?

I don't know. It wasn't a possibility

for such a long time.

So, I didn't think it was worth the effort

of wanting to get married and have kids.

[chuckles]

[Mum] Huh.

Oh. [mumbles]

[water running]

- You okay? - Hmm, I'm fine.

Sure?

[exhales] I suppose I never did know what was going on

in that odd little head of yours.

You were always running away. Do you remember?

Yeah.

[Mum] There was that time

that you got as far as the train station,

but then you'd lost your money

and so you couldn't buy a ticket.

Do you remember that?

[Adam] Yes, it was Granny's five-pound note.

Yeah, that was it.

Where were you hoping to go?

Don't know.

London, I guess.

[Mum] London?

God.

Oh, there was that time that you got as far as

the bottom of the garden, but then you cut your thumb

on an old milk bottle and you came running back up

all sheepish with blood all over your shirt,

and you were banging and banging

- on that window to be let in. - Yeah.

There it is.

Just.

[Adam sniffles] Hmm.

They say it's a very lonely kind of life.

[tense music playing]

They don't actually say that anymore.

[Mum] So, you're not lonely?

If I am, it's not because I'm gay.

Not really.

Not really.

Oh, God. And what about this awful, ghastly disease?

I've seen the adverts on the, on the news, and the,

and with the gravestone.

Should I be worried about that?

No. Jesus.

Everything's different now.

Everything's different.

Well, I guess I wouldn't know about that.

Your clothes will be dry now.

You should take these flapjacks with you,

if you want. I won't be eating them.

[train whooshing]

[pensive music playing]

[Adam grunts]

[shoes thudding on floor]

[elevator dings]

[pensive music playing]

What's wrong?

[elevator dings]

I'm okay.

I just got a bit of a chill.

Hey, you're hot.

Yeah.

I was just, I was just...

I just got caught in the rain.

Okay.

Well, why don't I run you a hot bath?

My nan says there's literally nothing

a hot bath couldn't solve.

I don't really like baths.

Fuck off. Who doesn't like baths?

[water running]

You don't need to be shy around me.

Yes, that's easier said than done.

[Harry chuckles]

Would you like me to close my eyes?

- Yes, please. - Okay. [chuckles]

Better?

- Yeah. - [Harry] Hmm.

[Harry] Been thinking about you all week, today.

[Adam] Hmm.

[Harry] Was thinking about

watching crappy TV with you on a Friday night.

[Harry] Eating takeaway on your sofa.

Watching all the episodes of Top of the Pops

from before I was born.

[both chuckling]

[Harry] Yeah. I thought about something else, too.

Thought about fucking you.

- Yeah? - [Harry] Yeah.

Or you fuck me. I don't really care which.

Are you into that?

Yeah.

It's okay if you're not. We all don't need to be into fucking.

Well, I wasn't for the longest time,

for obvious reasons.

[Harry] Obvious reasons?

I thought that if I fucked anybody, I'd die.

It's probably pretty difficult for you to imagine, isn't it?

[Harry] A little.

[Harry moaning]

[moaning]

[Adam] Yeah. Come on.

[gentle music playing]

You said the other day you don't see your dad much.

Yeah.

What about your mum?

Yeah, same.

How come?

They know you're queer?

Yeah, course.

- [Adam] Are they okay with it? - Yeah.

They're okay.

I mean, they're really old school.

Probably less okay than everyone's meant to be.

Yeah. But they got used to it, sort of, it's just,

they don't say too much.

You could say that I have

drifted to the edge.

Or right up to the edge, almost.

Over the edge.

What's that mean?

I'm edge of the family.

My sister and her kids,

and my older brother, who just got married,

they've all, they got this spot in the center.

But it's okay.

[Adam] Why is it okay?

Because,

I don't go home much.

Does that make you sad?

Um. No, I think it's just inevitable, really.

Why?

[chuckling]

Um... [inhales]

I've always felt like a stranger in my own family.

And then

coming out just puts a name

to that difference that's always been there.

So, in the end,

it's not really anyone's fault.

Hmm. What's wrong?

It's funny.

Things are better now. Course they are,

but doesn't take much to make you feel the way you felt,

back there again, skin all raw.

Am I still hot?

[Harry] Just a little.

You wanna stay the night?

[Harry chuckles]

[trees rustling]

[inaudible conversation]

[doorbell ringing]

[Dad] Sure she won't be long.

It's okay.

Just wanted to talk to her.

Yeah, I know you do.

This was your granddad's favorite.

I never really liked it much at the time,

but it's grown on me.

If you wanna see your mum really lose her shit,

go ahead and break that bloody thing.

["l Don't Want to Set the World on Fire" playing]

Come on, then, lad. Sit yourself down.

♪ I don't want

♪ To set the world on fire ♪

♪ I just want to start... I

Well, she told you, then?

Was scared you wouldn't come back.

But you know what your mum's like.

You know, don't be, don't be too disappointed in her.

No, I'm not.

Yeah, she just needs to rearrange some things in her head,

and all the stories that she's built up.

Yeah. She'll soon realize it's not actually about her.

What about you?

What about me?

What do you think?

Well, I mean, it was hardly a shock.

I always knew you were a bit tutti-frutti.

Couldn't throw a ball for shit,

no matter how many times I tried to teach you.

- Jesus. - Couldn't for shit.

Couldn't do it.

You make me sound like a horrible cliché.

Well, can you throw a ball?

- Not at all. - Well, there you go.

[Adam chuckles]

[Dad chuckles]

♪ To set the world on fire... ♪

Would you have liked me to have known?

I don't know.

I would hear you crying in your room after school.

Did the boys bully you, then?

Not just the boys.

What would they do?

Oh, call me a girl,

ignore me, refuse to play with me,

stick my head down the toilet,

flick drawing pins in my face.

Christ's sake.

Yeah. Well, you know,

kids are little cunts, aren't they?

[clears throat]

♪ And that one desire is you ♪

♪ And I know... ♪

So, why didn't you come into my room

if you heard me crying?

Why didn't you tell me what was happening at school?

You know, you answer me first.

Be honest.

I just didn't want to think of you as the kind of boy

that the other lads would pick on.

And I knew that if I was at your school,

I'd probably have picked on you, too.

Yeah, I think I always probably thought that, anyway.

Probably why I didn't tell you

what was happening to me at school.

♪ Set the world on... ♪

Well...

♪ Fire ♪

[Dad exhales]

♪ I just want to start ♪

♪ Aflame... I

- [music stops] - You know, when she told me,

it did make me think about all the jokes that we make,

and, you know, we did impressions

of your English teacher,

when he'd mince around with his limp wrist.

[chuckles]

You told me not to cross my legs,

like a woman, over, and over, and over again.

Did 1?

[Adam] Yeah, I still...

Still think about it every time I cross my legs.

I have good memories, too.

[Dad] Yeah, I hope so. Fuck.

I hope so. I hope you did. [chuckles]

Remember you used to love decorating the tree.

[Dad chuckles]

That's...

[Adam] You were crazy for it, every year.

And you'd always let me, um,

put the fairy on top of the tree.

The fairy. I did.

[clock ticking]

[Dad sobs]

I'm sorry I never came in your room when you were crying.

No, really, it's okay.

[Dad] No, it's not okay, though, really, is it?

- It's not. - Dad. Dad, I get it.

It was, it was so long...

[sobbing]

[voice breaks] It was so long ago. Stop!

[sobs]

Can I hug you now?

Yeah, please.

[sniffles]

[sniffling]

[Dad] You're all right, son.

You're all right.

[pensive music playing]

[Harry chuckles]

[Adam] After this,

I wanna go out.

You,

- and me... - [Harry moaning]

- [Adam] ...together... - [Harry chuckling]

[Adam] ...into the world.

["l Want a Dog" by Pet Shop Boys playing over speakers]

[indistinct chattering]

♪ My dog will bark at any passersby ♪

♪ Oh, you can get lonely ♪

♪ I want a dog... ♪

- What do you want to drink? - Uh... A pint.

Thank you.

Sorry.

Whoops, sorry.

Sorry.

Ah, fuck. I've missed this feeling.

I can't hear ya.

Do you dance?

If I'm wasted enough.

Then let's get wasted enough.

[dance music playing]

C'mon.

[Harry] Yeah.

[Adam] Where'd you get this?

[Harry] Found it in my wallet.

Fuck knows how long it's been there.

[sniffs]

[sniffs]

I think that's ketamine.

- Really? - Mmm-hmm.

Have you done it before?

No.

- Will you look after me? - I'll do my best.

- Okay. That'll have to do. - Okay.

["Death of a Party" by Blur playing over speakers]

♪ The death of the party ♪

♪ Came as no surprise ♪

♪ Why did we bother I

♪ Should have stayed away ♪

♪ Another night ♪

♪ And I thought well well ♪

♪ Go to another party ♪

♪ And hang myself ♪

♪ Gently on the shelf ♪

[inaudible conversation]

♪ Another night ♪

♪ And I thought well well ♪

♪ Go to another party ♪

♪ And hang myself ♪

♪ Gently on the shelf ♪

♪ Another party ♪

♪ And I thought well well ♪

♪ Go to another party ♪

♪ And hang myself ♪

♪ The death of the party ♪

♪ Came as no surprise ♪

- [music goes off tune] - [tempo drops]

[screaming]

[music fades out]

[man on TV speaking indistinctly]

[man on TV] ...for the next 30 minutes,

some surely good tunes coming your way.

Like down here, we have

at number four, The Pet Shop Boys

and You Were Always on My Mind.

["Always on My Mind" by Pet Shop Boys playing on TV]

[fire crackling]

- [Dad grunts] - [Mum] Adam.

What's wrong?

Oh, you're really hot.

No, he's really hot.

What?

Now, here you go.

Come on.

Squeeze in, squeeze in, squeeze in.

♪ Little things I should have said and done ♪

♪ I never took the time ♪

♪ You were always on my mind ♪

♪ You were always on my mind ♪

[singing] ♪ Maybe I didn't hold you ♪

♪ All those lonely, lonely times ♪

♪ And I guess I never told you ♪

♪ I'm so happy that you're mine ♪

♪ If I made you feel second best ♪

♪ I'm so sorry I was blind ♪

♪ You were always on my mind ♪

♪ You were always on my mind ♪

[both singing] ♪ Tellme ♪

♪ Tell me that your sweet love hasn't died ♪

♪ Give me ♪

♪ One more chance to keep you satisfied ♪

♪ Satisfied ♪

[Dad vocalizing]

Okay, get together.

Yeah. Yeah. Are you ready? I'm gonna press it.

Okay, it's going.

All right, we have to be quick ‘cause it goes off in a sec.

It's about ten seconds.

- Merry Christmas. - Merry Christmas.

- Here we go! - Merry Christmas. [chuckles]

- Merry Christmas! - Go...

♪ You were always on my mind ♪

♪ Tellme ♪

[music slows down, goes off tune]

Is this real?

[Mum] Does it feel real?

Yeah.

There you go, then.

[Adam] For how long, though?

I can't answer that.

I suppose we don't get to decide when it's over.

[Adam] You're not going out now, are you?

[Mum echoes] Where would we go?

The Walshes'.

[Mum] The Walshes'?

The Walshes'.

[Adam] No, no. Wait.

Promise me you're not gonna go out now.

[Mum] I promise.

We're just gonna be asleep next door.

Promise. [echoes]

All right?

Get some sleep.

[door closes]

[sighs]

[Adam] No.

[knocking on door]

[Mum] What is it, sweetheart?

I can't sleep.

Well, do you wanna get in?

- Can 1? - Course you can.

[Dad grunts]

Still smells the same in here.

You'd creep in here night after night,

saying you couldn't sleep.

You're always scared of something.

Murderers breaking in, or rabies,

or nuclear war.

Do people still get rabies?

- No. - Oh!

I was desperate for you to grow up

just so I could get a good night's sleep.

[clock ticking]

Sorry.

What are you sorry for?

I'm the sorry one.

I should've relished you driving me bananas.

Where did you go?

You know, afterwards.

I lived with Granny.

She took me to Dublin.

Yeah, I thought so.

Why didn't you live with his lot?

Why didn't you live with Granny May?

They said she was too heartbroken.

About what?

Well, she'd lost her son.

Oh, I see. But my mother was fine

about losing her only daughter?

No, no.

She was not fine.

I just can't believe that she

got to look after you and I didn't.

Are any of them still around now?

No.

Guess they wouldn't be, would they?

And how did you get on over there with Mum?

Did you manage to fit in better at school?

I made sure I did.

I hate that we weren't around

when you needed us most, sweetheart.

And I hate even more

that I wasn't there before that, not really.

No, that's not true.

Come on. Well, I was hardly Mother of the Year, was I?

But I like to think that

I would've got better at it in time.

You know, given time.

You know, when I was a teenager,

or even later, into my twenties,

I used to plot it all out.

What do you mean?

What we might've done together

in intricate detail. Trips to the Whitgift Centre,

birthdays,

trips to London,

the Planetarium, the London Dungeon.

Oh, I always wanted to go there.

[chuckles]

- I know. - [chuckles]

There were holidays

that we might've gone on together.

Did we make it to Disneyland?

We did.

When I was 14.

- It rained nonstop. - Oh!

And they shut down Space Mountain.

And we fought every day.

Why did we have to fight?

Because that's what everyone did with their parents.

They fought and bickered

and pretended that they

were ruining each other's lives.

Did we make up?

No, we didn't need to make up.

We were together,

SO,

so it didn't matter.

You okay?

- [sobs] no. - [Dad] You're okay, son.

You're okay.

What are you doing here?

You're not supposed to be here.

[vehicle approaching]

[gravel crunching]

[car door opens]

[indistinct radio chatter]

[door closes]

[indistinct radio chatter]

[knocking at door]

[phone ringing]

[gasps]

[eerie music playing]

[indistinct announcement on PA]

[eerie music playing]

[coughing]

[brakes squealing]

[screaming]

[Adam] Mum? Mum?

- [yells] - [Harry shushing]

[Adam breathing heavily]

You're okay.

You're okay.

[Adam sobbing]

- What day... What day is it? - Sunday.

Why is it...

How come... How... Why is it still Sunday?

[Harry] You kept screaming out for your parents

over and over again in the club.

And then

I didn't know what to do, so I just

took you back here and lay with you till you fell asleep.

[Adam breathing heavily]

[Harry] You looked so scared.

I am.

[Harry] Hey, come here. Come here.

Hey, come here.

- [shushing] - [Adam groaning]

I'm here. It's okay.

[Adam crying]

[Adam continues crying]

You're okay.

[Adam] I was sleeping in their bed

the night they went out.

I was meant to go with them.

To Christmas drinks at the Walshes'.

Around midnight, um,

two police came to the door. A man and a woman.

He had really beautiful, kind eyes

and this thick, dark stubble.

Looked like it had been drawn on.

The car skidded on black ice. [sighs]

Both of them had been drinking.

Dad was killed right away, but they took Mum to, uh,

Saint Mary's in Croydon, and she died a few days later.

Did you get to see her?

What do you mean? To say goodbye?

Mmm-hmm. Yeah.

No.

My granny thought it would be too scarring.

[Adam sniffles]

Mum went through the windscreen

and she lost an eye,

so she was pretty fucked up.

Jesus.

Yeah.

I went looking for that eye.

I don't know why. Didn't want anyone else to find it.

Thought it would be on the side of the road.

[chuckling]

staring up at me. "Hi." [chuckles]

I did find a tiny piece

of the windscreen glass, though.

In my head, it had blood on it,

but maybe that's not true.

The nurse said that Mum woke up

just before she died.

She must've been so confused. Can't hardly see and...

Dad wasn't there, I wasn't there.

I can't even begin to imagine how you felt.

How lonely you must've been.

Yeah, but, like, I'd always felt lonely,

even before.

This was a new feeling.

Like...

a terror,

that I'd always be alone now.

And then, as I got older, that feeling just,

just solidified.

Just a...

Just a knot here all the time.

And then losing them,

it just got tangled up with all the other stuff,

about being gay,

and just feeling like...

the future doesn't matter.

Does that make sense?

Yeah.

Mmm-hmm.

I know how easy it can be to stop caring about yourself.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Adam.

Will you come with me?

[chuckles]

Where to?

Just let me show you.

[doorbell ringing]

Whose house is this?

My parents'.

Yeah. Who lives here now?

It's okay. Don't worry.

Hello?

Adam.

[knocking on door]

[Adam] Hello?

- Where are they? - [Harry] Who?

[Adam] Hello?

[Harry] Who?

[Adam] My parents.

This is our house. This is our kitchen.

This is our wallpaper. That's our table where we had

fish and chips every Friday night

so my mother could pretend

we were still Catholic.

Adam, I want to go home. Let me take you home.

- This is my home. - No, it used to be.

- It's not anymore. Adam! - Mum?

- Dad? - Adam, listen.

Let me take you home.

You go home!

You go home. I'm not going.

[Adam] Where are they?

Where are they?

[banging on door]

Mum?

- Adam, stop it. - Dad?

[eerie music playing]

[Adam] Can you see them?

Let me in.

Please.

Please let me in.

Please let me in.

[glass shattering]

[Dad whispering] He has to stop now.

He has to get on with his life.

He can't keep coming here.

We're not allowing him to get on with his life.

[Mum whispering] I think we are helping him.

[Dad] No, we're not. It's not normal.

- It's not... - Why didn't you let us in?

Where is he? Is he here? Is Harry here?

[Mum] No.

We did see him, though.

But I wanted you to meet him.

I know, but I don't think this works like that.

Looked like a handsome fellow, though.

Is he your special friend?

Do you mean my boyfriend?

Is he my boyfriend? You can say it.

Okay. Well, is he your boyfriend?

Um... Uh, I don't know.

Are you in love with him?

[Adam chuckles]

Why is that so strange?

I don't know, I've never been in love before, so...

Not really.

So, this...

I don't know if this is it.

[Mum] Sweetheart.

Well,

he certainly seems to care about you a whole heap,

in my not so humble opinion.

Do you think you'd like to be in love with him?

Yeah?

[soft music playing]

- Son, I think we... - No.

Don't say it.

- Please don't say it. - No, we have to.

We have to.

Um...

Me and your mum,

we think that it's best you don't come visit us anymore.

All right.

You're just gonna keep coming and coming, I know you are.

And we can see what this is doing to you.

It's not doing anything to me.

Yes, itis.

It won't let you move on.

Okay, well, I'll come less.

I'll come once a year. I'll come at Christmas.

Come on, lad, we...

You have to have known that this wasn't gonna last forever.

I'm not asking for it to last forever.

I'm just...

It hasn't been long enough.

Hasn't been close to long enough.

I know, but it never could be, could it?

Hey, listen.

I've got an idea.

How's about...

How's about we go to your favorite place

in the whole bloody world, huh?

I'm sure it's still open.

It's the next best thing to Disneyland.

It's fucking cheaper too.

[Adam laughing]

[Adam sighs]

What do you think?

[engine whirring]

["If I Could See the World (Through the Eyes of a Child)" playing]

♪ If I could see the world ♪

♪ Through the eyes of a child I

♪ What a wonderful world ♪

♪ This would be ♪

♪ There'd be no trouble...

[Adam] Uh, can I get the "family special," please?

[server] That's a lot of food.

That's okay.

Not really very hungry.

- No, me neither. - No.

Hey, I wanna ask you something.

- God, no, don't ask. - No, no, I'm gonna ask him.

- Was it quick? - Oh, Jesus.

- I told you not to ask. - You're the... You wanna know.

Yeah, but what if it was slow and horribly painful?

- Yeah, but what difference does it make? - Ilt makes a big difference.

[Adam] It was quick.

- Was it? - [Adam] Yeah.

For both of us?

Mmm-hmm.

[Mum] No, you don't seem sure.

Don't be fibbing now.

It was quick.

It was really quick.

Well, okay.

Yeah, yeah.

Yeah, but that's a relief, isn't it? Of sorts.

It's been playing on my mind, that has.

What do you think we should say

to each other? [chuckles]

Not sure I have much wisdom to share.

I don't know, maybe, Adam being older,

should be sharing some with us.

Maybe we shouldn't say anything.

Maybe.

Although, I will say that getting

to know you has made us very proud, son.

I haven't done anything to be proud of.

- I've just muddled through. - No, but you got through.

Some tough times, I'm sure,

and you're still here.

That's what we're proud of.

Yeah.

Dad?

[Dad] Hmm?

Stay. Stay. Stay a bit longer.

[Dad] No, I don't think so, son.

[Mum] Love you, darling.

You do?

Sometimes, I wasn't so sure.

Whatever problems we had,

I'm glad we got to be together at the end.

Me too.

Now, I...

I know I was never good at saying it.

I just couldn't get the words out.

I do love you very much.

Somehow, even more, now that I know you.

It's important that you believe me.

I do.

[voice breaks] And I love you very much.

Dad?

[patting on hand]

Dad, did... Dad, did you hear that?

[Mum sobs] Oh, Adam, are you there?

I can't see you. Why can't I see you?

I'm here, Mum.

[Mum] Oh, there you are.

I can feel you.

Skin's lovely and warm.

Now, you listen.

You promise me

that you're gonna try with this Harry boy.

Yeah.

I'd have liked him. I know it.

He might need a bit of taking care of, mind you.

He's got such a sad face.

- Do you hear me? - Yeah.

Yeah, I hear you.

That's good.

I hope you make each other a bit happier.

Such a kind and gentle boy.

- [server] Enjoy. - Thank you.

[Adam exhales]

[somber music playing]

[beeps]

[music fades out]

[TV static buzzing]

[buzzing stops]

[dripping]

Harry?

[ominous music playing]

[coughing]

[door rattles, opens]

What are you doing down here?

I came to find you.

Why are you here?

l... I said goodbye to them, so I came to see you.

[Harry exhales]

[Harry groans]

- It's okay. - [Harry] It's not okay, though, is it?

I was so scared that night. I just needed to not be alone.

I know.

I'm sorry.

I was too scared

to let you in.

I'm in there, aren't I?

- Let's just go upstairs. - No, no, no.

I just need you to tell me, okay?

Because I can smell it. I can...

taste it in my throat.

[exhales]

How come no one found me?

Where was my mum and my dad?

- I found you... - [voice breaks] I know,

but I... Adam, I don't want you

to see me like that in there. It's...

You're not in there. You're not in there.

You're not in there.

You're here.

You're here.

You're here.

With me.

Let's just go upstairs.

[Harry chuckles]

I saw her, you know.

Your mum.

Your dad, too, at the house.

They saw you, too.

They did?

Mmm-hmm.

My dad says you're a handsome fellow.

[Harry chuckling]

Hmm.

[Adam] They'd have loved you.

They both would.

That's good.

Did you get to say what you wanted to say?

I don't know, but I got to be with them.

[Harry] It's good that you were all together.

Yeah.

I'm scared.

I know.

But I'm here with you.

[Harry] Don't let this get tangled up again.

Okay, come on.

Okay.

[grunting]

[exhales]

It's so quiet.

Never could stand how quiet this place was.

Will you put a record on?

- What would you like? - You choose.

["The Power of Love" playing]

"I'll protect you from the hooded claw."

"Keep the vampires from your door."

♪ Ay, ay, ay, ay ♪

♪ Feels like fire ♪

♪ I'm so in love with you ♪

♪ Dreams are like angels ♪

♪ They keep bad at bay, bad at bay ♪

♪ Love is the light ♪

♪ Scaring darkness away, yeah ♪

♪ I'm so in love with you ♪

♪ Purge the soul ♪

♪ Make love your goal ♪

♪ The power of love ♪

♪ A force from above ♪

♪ Cleaning my soul ♪

♪ Flame on, burn desire ♪

♪ Love with tongues of fire ♪

♪ Purge the soul ♪

♪ Make love your goal ♪

♪ I'll protect you from the hooded claw ♪

♪ Keep the vampires from your door ♪

♪ When the chips are down I'll be around ♪

♪ With my undying, death-defying love for you ♪

♪ Envy will hurt itself ♪

♪ Let yourself be beautiful ♪

♪ Sparkling love, flowers and pearls and pretty girls I

♪ Love is like an energy ♪

♪ Rushin' an' rushin' inside of me, eh ♪

♪ The power of love ♪

♪ A force from above ♪

♪ Cleaning my soul ♪

♪ Flame on, burn desire ♪

♪ Love with tongues of fire ♪

♪ Purge the soul ♪

♪ Make love your goal ♪

♪ This time we go sublime ♪

♪ Lovers entwine, divine, divine ♪

♪ Love is danger, love is pleasure

♪ Love is pure, the only treasure ♪

♪ I'm so in love with you Purge the soul ♪

♪ Make love your goal ♪

♪ The power of love ♪

♪ A force from above ♪

♪ Cleaning my soul ♪

♪ The power of love ♪

♪ A force from above ♪

♪ A sky-scraping dove ♪

♪ Flame on, burn desire ♪

♪ Love with tongues of fire ♪

♪ Purge the soul ♪

♪ Make love your goal ♪

♪ I'll protect you from the hooded claw ♪

♪ Keep the vampires from your door ♪

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All Of Us Strangers Descriptive Audio

 
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Searchlights sweep an evening sky, piercing clouds, and
illuminating a towering edifice in the form of

searchlight pictures, with the lights of Hollywood, palm

trees, and the hills beyond.

Wispy clouds hang in a twilight sky that

silhouettes city buildings lining the horizon.

A glint of sunlight reflects off one of

the buildings and grows in intensity.

Slowly, the faint image of a man fades

up over the cityscape.

Shirtless, he stares with a haunted expression in

the reddish glow of early morning.

The light reflecting off the building in the

distance shines like a starburst.

The picture fades and a title appears, All

of Us Strangers.

Now the man sits at a small desk

in front of a window.

The dark-haired, middle-aged man wears a

cardigan over a blue t-shirt.

He leans forward in his chair and rests

his hands on a laptop's keyboard.

Shoulders hunched and head bowed, he sits motionless.

He lifts his chin and gazes off with

a thoughtful squint.

Blinking, he returns his gaze to the laptop,

then leans back in his chair.

Later, he lounges on a sofa by a

sunlit window.

He munches on a snack.

Meanwhile, work goes on for the Brits who've

relocated to the Costa.

Running a bar in the sun is the

classic British dream.

It can easily turn into a nightmare, but

Gary and Cherry from Macclesfield have made it

work.

The bamboo bar is a success.

Later, the man sleeps while the window beside

the sofa frames city lights under the dusky

sky.

The man wakes, groggily props himself up on

one elbow, and looks outside.

With a yawn, he sits all the way

up and gazes out the window.

Now he opens a fridge and lifts a

foil takeaway container.

Using the lid, he moves noodles around, inspecting

them.

He tilts his head back and gives an

annoyed glance toward the ceiling.

Replacing the lid on the container, he puts

it back in the fridge.

Now he trudges down an empty hallway.

He presses a lift call

button.

Moments later, he steps through his apartment building's

automatic door and into a courtyard.

He pauses momentarily to look back up at

the building, then continues walking.

As he glances back at the building again,

he notices something.

He stops and turns completely, staring up at

the apartment tower.

All the windows sit dark and empty save

for one about five stories up.

In the bluish glow of the light behind

him, a person stands at the window, looking

down at the dark-haired man.

As the person steps away from the window,

the man continues to stare up at it.

As he slowly heads back toward the building,

the view rises past floors of dark windows

to the only other lit window near the

top floor.

Inside, the takeaway container sits empty as the

man sits before a musical performance on his

TV.

He turns his gaze toward the door.

He pauses the TV, which shows a caption

that reads, Frankie goes to Hollywood, the power

of love.

He opens his door to a man with

shaggy hair and a moustache.

Hello.

Hello.

I saw you looking at me from the

street.

I've seen you a bunch of times coming

and going with your head down.

One day it'll be for real, that alarm.

He shifts on his feet and glances down

the hall.

We're basically the only ones here.

Can you fucking believe that?

I mean, I haven't got security guards yet.

I'm Harry.

The moustached man offers his hand.

Adam.

As Adam shakes it, Harry's gentle grip lingers

on Adam's fingers.

How do you cope?

Adam's lips part and he shakes his head.

With what?

With his head.

Adam stares at Harry, then lowers his gaze

and twists his lips.

It's so quiet.

I mean, no one's out there, but we

can't hear a fucking thing.

Harry leans his head against the doorjamb.

I play music, right, but it's worse when

it ends.

I even got one of those white noise

machines, right, but it's like there's someone in

the corner of the room whispering about me.

I mean, we can't even open the windows,

but I guess they don't really want us

to jump.

It's bad for business, you know.

Body's broken on the concrete.

I mean, who's going to move in then?

Drink?

It's Japanese.

It's meant to be the best in the

world, but I couldn't tell you why.

He holds an almost empty liquor bottle.

No, thanks.

Okay, um...

Okay, how about I come in anyway?

If not for a drink, then...

for whatever else you might want.

Adam tilts his head and regards Harry with

a bashful smile.

Um...

I think that's a good idea.

Do I scare you?

No.

We don't have to do anything if I'm

not your type.

There's vampires at my door.

Adam lingers by the door, keeping his palm

pressed against it.

On the other side, Harry keeps his head

tilted back against the wall and shuts his

eyes.

Adam sits back down on his sofa.

He glances over at his closed door, then

picks up some items from the coffee table.

He glances at the door again, lowers his

gaze, and sets the items back down.

In a lift, the mirrored walls reflect Harry's

image infinitely, as he swigs from his liquor

bottle.

He leans against the wall beside the digital

floor indicator, which displays an arrow pointing downward,

then the number six.

Gazing upward, Harry blinks slowly.

Now Adam sleeps in his apartment, framed by

the open bedroom door.

Morning.

Two tower-block apartments stand side by side,

with more city buildings stretching toward the horizon.

Words type out on a document on Adam's

laptop.

Exterior, Suburban House, 1987.

The cursor blinks at the end of the

line.

Seated at his desk, Adam stares straight ahead,

then turns to look toward his bedroom.

He gets up.

Moments later, he pulls a plastic storage container

from under his bed and tosses it on

top of the mattress.

Later, he goes through the contents of the

container.

He closes a blank cassette case and sets

it among the various items before him.

He gently picks up a small angel tree

topper made from burlap.

He tosses the decoration aside and picks up

a silver lighter.

He tries igniting it, but the flame doesn't

light.

He turns the flat square device in his

fingers, then puts it down.

Hanging his head, he picks up an old

envelope from a photo developer and flips through

the pictures inside.

The first few feature a boy about ten

years old, smiling on a swing.

Adam puts the pack of photos down and

picks up a small album.

Turning the page, he finds a photo of

a suburban two-story house with a tan

sedan, parked in the driveway.

Adam stares at the photo.

Working his jaw, he gazes off and sets

the photo album down.

He turns his distant gaze toward the window,

where a train curves along a track below.

Now a train travels over a river past

a skyline of modern buildings.

Adam sits aboard, staring out his window.

Another train speeds past in the opposite direction.

Shadow briefly fills the car as the train

speeds past trees that blot out the sun.

Adam watches the treetops blur past, then shuts

his eyes.

His head rocks gently against his seat with

the movement of the train.

Later, the departing train's windows reflect a backwards

word on a station sign, Sanders Stead.

Adam stands at the station, his eyes darting

thoughtfully.

He heads away on foot.

In a suburban neighbourhood, Adam walks down a

pavement past two-story homes.

He slows at the end of a driveway

that slopes slightly downward toward a garage.

Adam holds the picture of the suburban home

up and compares it to the house in

front of him.

The roofline and white stucco match the photo

perfectly.

Adam continues walking past, tucking the photo into

an inside jacket pocket.

As he passes alongside a shoulder-high hedge,

his gaze stays focused on the house.

He slows to a stop in front of

a bay window, where a boy stands staring

out at him.

Adam stares back for a moment, then keeps

walking.

At a park, Adam sits at a table

near a playground, gazing at some of the

old photographs.

He glances up toward the children playing nearby.

Twisting his lips, he pockets the photos and

munches on some fries from a paper cone.

As he chews, he looks down at his

hands, then around at the passing park-goers

and playing children.

Later, hands in the pockets of his jeans,

Adam walks across a field of dry, knee

-high grass.

He approaches a strand of trees at the

edge of the field as a breeze blows

through their branches.

Adam walks through the trees and comes out

into another field of even taller grass.

He slows to a stop, his gaze distant

under a furrowed brow.

Under a cloudy sky, more trees make a

thick wall of foliage at the far end

of the field.

Between the trees and the field, a few

homes' rooftops peek above the long blades of

dry grass.

Slowly, the light in the sky dims.

Adam stands with his eyes closed and his

jaw tight.

He blinks his eyes open.

He turns his head, then turns his whole

body around to look at the strand of

trees he had walked through.

A man, standing at the edge of the

field, turns and walks back through the trees.

Adam's eyes widen.

He stares after the man, then follows him

through the trees.

As Adam emerges from the trees into the

park, the mysterious man walks about a hundred

feet ahead.

He stops and looks back at Adam, then

keeps walking.

Adam stops at the edge of the trees

and tilts his head as he watches him.

He hesitantly continues to follow.

Now Adam walks toward a main street, where

a hair salon sits beside a little market

called Sanderstead Village Store.

Glancing over his shoulder, he crosses the street

toward the market.

As he approaches the glass storefront, he sees

the mysterious man inside.

Adam turns his attention back toward the street.

The mysterious man exits the store and stops

before Adam.

In his early thirties, he wears his hair

and moustache neatly trimmed and sports a brown

leather jacket.

Adam smiles cordially.

The man lifts a bottle wrapped in a

plastic shopping bag.

He opens a fresh pack of cigarettes and

offers one to Adam.

Adam shakes his head.

The man puts a cigarette between his lips.

He lights his smoke and takes a drag

as he eyes Adam.

Letting out a puff of smoke, he smirks

and walks off.

Adam watches him with a quizzical gaze, then

follows him.

Later, they wait outside the front door of

Adam's childhood home.

She's going to be over the moon to

see you.

A woman opens the door.

Guess who I found later in the park?

Is it him?

Yeah, it's definitely him.

Look in his eyes.

As he goes inside, the woman peers at

Adam.

Yes, it is you.

Adam stares back at the young, dark-haired

woman.

Hi.

Hi.

Don't just stand there.

Get yourself inside.

Later, the three of them sit at a

dining table.

So where are you living now?

Not around here, I'm sure.

I'm in London.

Oh, how fancy.

Whereabouts?

Do you live by yourself?

Do you own your own place?

Yeah, it's just a flat.

What did I tell you?

What did I tell you?

I told you we'd do well for himself,

didn't I?

Can't be cheap, living up there in the

smoke.

And what is it that you do?

I'm a writer.

And what did I tell you?

No, no, no.

I'm not particularly rich or anything.

Sorry.

No, I always knew you'd be creative.

She cuffs Adam's face in her hands and

kisses his cheek.

What kind of writer are you?

You know how I love Stephen King, Carrie,

Cujo, different seasons.

No, no, no, I'm not a proper writer.

I write scripts for film, TV, when I

have to.

A writer.

God, this is so bloody exciting.

If I knew the neighbours, I'd run over

and I'd tell them right now.

I've always said that writers know less about

the real world than almost anyone else.

What the hell would you know?

You're barely right joined up.

It's true.

They both smile proudly at Adam.

A writer.

Our son.

Adam's dad puts his hand on Adam's.

We're very bloody pleased to see you doing

so well, then.

Here.

Look at that puffy shit.

Our boy's back home.

They hold up their drinks for a toast.

Later...

What are you putting on?

Adam's dad puts on a record.

Oh, you'll see.

Oh, do you remember your little red car

that you had?

You loved it and you wanted to take

it out onto the main road and drive

it with all the big cars.

It's my first memory, actually.

It was a Ford Granada that hit him,

wasn't it?

No, it was.

It was racing green.

Do you remember that?

It flung you like a rag doll.

You went so high up in the air,

I'll never forget it.

Oh, but you were fine, though.

You were fine.

You had a couple of bruises.

I think they thought I was exaggerating when

I took you in.

What about that one bonfire night when you

lost it?

Remember that?

Bonfire night?

How old were you?

Six?

No, he was not.

He was older than that.

The fireworks went off.

The poor boy started screaming and howling.

Had to carry him all the way home.

He did?

Yeah.

He fell asleep on my shoulder.

I don't remember that.

You were really beside yourself.

You were really having a hard time.

We were just trying to get you to

enjoy the fireworks.

You've always been a sensitive boy.

Are you still afraid of fireworks now?

No.

Do you know what he said on that?

He said, just like my mother.

He does.

Doesn't he?

You know that.

He did say something like that.

Yeah, it's when he speaks to me.

Later, Adam watches his parents dance.

Outside the house, his dad gives him a

big hug.

It's so bloody lovely to see you again.

I wasn't sure we ever would.

But here we are.

Here we are.

He gives Adam a quick kiss and steps

aside.

His mother embraces him.

Come back soon, hmm?

One of us will be in.

Smiling with a perplexed expression, Adam nods as

his mother rubs his shoulders.

Please.

His mother looks him in the eyes and

he nods.

Yeah, I will.

Good.

Let's go, then.

Goodnight, sweetheart.

Goodnight, son.

Goodnight.

Adam's father puts his arm around his wife

and escorts her back to the house.

Adam turns to go, then glances back at

his parents.

He blinks, lips parted.

He stands at the end of the driveway

by the tan sedan.

Hands in his pockets, Adam slowly walks away.

Later, as Adam rides in the back of

a car, he gazes out the window.

In a sort of daze, he arrives at

his apartment building.

He trudges through the lobby.

As he reaches for a closed glass door,

he sees Harry on the other side, waiting

for a lift.

Adam opens the door.

Harry looks over as Adam joins him in

front of the lifts.

Adam keeps his gaze averted and puts his

hands in his pockets.

Hello.

Hi.

Later, they ride the lift together.

I'm really sorry about the other night.

It's alright.

Don't worry about it.

See ya.

See ya.

Harry steps off.

I actually do like whisky, if you want

to have a drink.

The door slides closed between them.

Adam winces and shakes his head.

As the lift continues up, Adam presses his

lips together and turns away from the door.

He hangs his head and shakes it again.

In his dark bedroom, Adam lies on his

pillows, gazing at the old photographs.

He lowers them to his chest and shuts

his eyes.

A small smile lifts his lips as he

drifts off to sleep.

Morning, Adam wakes.

Blinking groggily, he holds up a hand to

block the light from the window.

He props himself up on one elbow, rubs

his eye, and gulps some water from a

glass on the nightstand.

Sitting all the way up, he blinks some

more, then looks over at the photos now

resting on the nightstand beside the empty glass.

Later, an album sleeve for Now That's What

I Call Music 10 lies beside a record

player.

Nearby, Adam types at his desk.

A small smirk lifts the corner of his

mouth as he works.

Later, Adam paces in front of his floor

-to-ceiling windows, clicking a pen at his

side.

As he glances down toward the street below,

he stops moving and stares.

He puts down his pen and picks up

a pair of binoculars.

Through them, he focusses on Harry standing on

the ground below.

Looking up toward Adam's window, he waves.

Adam lowers the binoculars and gives a goofy

grin.

He lifts his hand to wave back.

Hi.

Later, he opens his apartment door for Harry.

Hello.

Hi.

Hi.

Do you want to come in?

Sure.

Harry steps inside, and they awkwardly stand facing

each other in the living room.

Do you want a drink?

Yeah.

What have you got?

I've got vodka and some beer with some

weed, I'd be proud.

Yeah, weed's better.

I'm off alcohol.

Harry wanders over to the window as Adam

sits on the sofa and prepares a vape.

Do you like living here?

I think I like it more when people

move in, if people move in.

Have you got friends nearby?

No, not really.

Do you?

No, not really.

Most of my friends have moved out of

London.

They want to have gardens for their kids.

They want to be near their grandparents so

they can look after their kids.

I'm guessing you didn't want to move too?

No.

Harry joins Adam on the sofa.

What am I going to do in Dorky?

It's not for people like me.

As Adam takes a hit from the vape,

Harry looks him over.

I'm just checking you are queer, right?

Yeah.

That's good.

Adam grins bashfully and looks down.

Or gay.

I can't get used to calling myself queer,

I was always such an insult.

That's probably why we hate gay so much

now.

I mean, it was always like, your haircut's

gay, the sofa's gay, your trainers are gay,

your schoolbag's gay.

Yeah.

Queer does feel polite somehow though, you know?

Harry takes a hit from the vape.

I don't know, it's like all the dick

sucking's been taken out.

Yeah.

I'm assuming you're not with anyone?

I never see you with anyone?

No.

You often single?

Am I often single?

Mm-hmm.

Uh...

I suppose so, yeah.

Are you?

Yeah.

Yeah.

But not for want of trying.

How about I kiss you?

No, wait.

Ooh.

Sorry.

You all right?

No, yeah, yeah.

Just haven't done this.

What?

I haven't done this in a while.

Just remember to breathe.

Okay.

Yeah, yeah.

It's okay.

You're good.

You all right?

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Uh-huh.

Adam caresses his cheek as the kiss intensifies.

Later, Harry stands shirtless in the living room

looking at Adam's old photos.

It's you?

I'm afraid it is.

Man, you were cute.

I hate my photos.

I was a fat kid.

All right, but when you're a fat kid,

no one asks why you don't have a

girlfriend.

We'd have been friends for sure, though.

Bunked off football to spy on the boys.

Adam hangs his head.

Harry picks up another photo.

Is this your dad?

Yeah.

He's handsome.

Yeah.

I'm trying to write about him at the

moment.

Is that what you do?

Yeah.

How's it going?

Uh, strangely.

I don't see my dad much.

Do you see yours?

No, they died just before I was 12.

Both of them?

Yeah.

Yeah, car crash.

Not the most original of deaths.

I'm really sorry.

No, thanks.

It was a long time ago.

Yeah, I don't think that matters.

Harry meets his gaze sincerely.

Wow.

Adam looks away with a shrug.

As Adam looks at the photos, Harry straightens

up and faces him.

I'd like to see you again.

Yeah, okay.

I could stay the night if you...

Adam shifts on his feet.

How about actually, better idea, not tonight?

Yeah?

No, no, I would like to see you

again.

You don't need to explain.

Adam gathers up the photos.

Okay.

Thanks.

Now Adam sits on the train watching the

trees blur past his window.

In a rainstorm, he walks with his shoulders

hunched, down an alleyway, between two wooden fences.

He comes to the front door of his

childhood home, and rings the bell.

As his mother opens the inner wooden door,

his reflection in the glass door merges with

her face on the other side.

She opens the door.

Sweetheart, you came back.

Of course I came back.

Jesus, you're sodden.

Come on, take it all off.

No, I'm not taking my clothes off.

Don't be silly.

It's only me.

Come on, arms up.

I'll put them in the dryer.

She helps him take off his sweater.

It's just me today, is that all right?

Yeah, of course it is.

Good.

There's so much I want to know, I

want to hear everything.

Right, go on, upstairs, get changed.

My goodness, this is so exciting.

In his undershirt, Adam looks up the stairs.

As his mum hurries off, he hesitantly heads

up.

Upstairs, he pushes open a bedroom door with

a no trespassing sign on it.

Pausing in the entryway, he takes in the

child's room.

A Frankie Goes to Hollywood poster hangs on

the wall.

Adam steps past it and looks around with

a thoughtful frown.

A boombox sits on a desk beside a

stack of board games.

Adam flips through some albums, including Erasure's The

Circus and Frankie Goes to Hollywood's Welcome to

the Pleasure Dome.

Adam runs his thumb over a cartoonish illustration

of the band members on the cover.

Blinking, he sets them aside.

Adam passes a shelf where an army action

figure sits without trousers.

He flips through a notebook with mostly blank

pages, save for one with his name written

a few times in block letters.

He brings the notebook to his nose for

a sniff.

Later, he stands at an open wardrobe and

takes out a shirt on a hanger.

Reflected in a mirror, his mother peeks in

behind him.

Adam bashfully peels off his wet undershirt.

As he takes off his shoes, his mother

puts a hand to his chest.

She looks him over with wide eyes and

gives her head a little shake.

He smiles at her.

She puts her hand on his cheek as

she gazes at him with a sad smile.

And I thought you'd be hairier, like your

dad.

Okay, sorry.

Like a hairy chest myself.

As she watches him, her brow wrinkles.

Christ, you know who you remind me of?

Uh, who?

You look just like my dad.

Do you?

Hmm.

I remember him anyway when I was a

little girl.

God, isn't that mad?

It's like seeing you both exactly the same

time.

Adam puts on a v-neck sweater and

some pants.

Oh, I've made your favourite.

Well, I hope it's still your favourite.

I'll just go and pop the kettle on

and then you can tell me everything.

As she leaves the room, Adam sits to

put on a sock.

His smile fades and he looks around, blinking.

He licks his lips and swallows hard.

From outside, the window frames him as he

stands and looks straight out.

Later, his mother watches him from the kitchen.

As he takes a bite of food, he

tilts his head back and nods.

Now, your dad told me not to ask.

I don't see a wedding ring, so I'm

presuming you're not married, but have you got

a girlfriend?

Hmm?

I'm picturing her with brown hair, not too

skinny, smart, obviously.

Adam looks down at his plate.

Well?

Well what?

Do you?

I don't have a girlfriend.

Oh.

That's a shame.

He sits down across from her at a

counter.

She pours milk in his teacup and some

in her own.

I don't have a girlfriend because I'm not

into girls, into women.

What do you mean?

I mean...

Adam looks her in the eyes.

I'm gay.

As in homosexual?

As in, uh, that, yeah.

Really?

Yeah.

Since when?

Uh, since a long time.

How long?

Forever.

You don't look gay.

Well, I'm not sure what that means.

It means what it means, you know what

it means.

She pours tea into their cups, keeping her

eyes averted from him.

Well, I bet you're glad you don't know

the neighbours now.

I must admit, I'm a bit surprised.

I'm not really sure what I feel about

it.

What, you didn't think it would be a

possibility?

No, of course not.

What parent wants to think that about their

child?

No parent that I know.

Well, I'm very okay with it, so.

But aren't people nasty to you?

No, no, things are different now.

Well, so they aren't nasty?

Not out loud, anyway.

But does everybody know?

I mean, are you open about it?

I mean, I don't know, down the high

street at W8 Smith's?

Well, it depends on the street.

Yeah, everybody knows.

Everyone's fine.

Well, don't you want to get married and

have kids?

I can have kids.

Men can marry.

Women, too.

Her jaw drops.

What, to each other?

Yeah.

Why?

What do you mean, why?

Well, isn't that like having your cake and

eating it?

Adam stares at her with a quizzical brow.

So, do you want to get married and

have kids?

I don't know.

It wasn't a possibility for such a long

time, I didn't think it was worth the

effort of wanting to get married and have

kids.

He smiles incredulously as he lifts his tea.

His mother starts to sip her tea, then

grimaces, goes to the sink and dumps it

out.

Adam watches as she stands agitatedly at the

sink.

You okay?

Fine.

Sure?

I suppose I never did know what was

going on in that odd little head of

yours.

You were always running away.

Do you remember that?

Yeah.

It was that time that you got as

far as the train station, but then you'd

lost your money and so you couldn't buy

a ticket.

Do you remember that?

Yeah, it was Granny's five pound note.

Yeah, that was it.

Where were you hoping to go?

Adam shakes his head and shrugs his lips.

To hell.

London, I guess.

London.

God.

He rubs his eyes.

Oh, there was that time that you got

as far as the bottom of the garden,

but then you cut your thumb on an

old milk bottle and you came running back

up all sheepish, blood all over your shirt

and you were banging and banging from that

window to be let in.

There it is.

Just.

She rubs his thumb then takes his hand.

They say it's a very lonely kind of

life.

Adam wrinkles his nose and pulls his hand

away.

They don't actually say that anymore.

So you're not lonely.

He looks down, a tear glistening on his

cheek.

If I am, it's not because I'm gay.

Not really.

Not really.

They look at one another.

Adam lowers his gaze.

His mother sits back, her brow furrowed.

Oh, God, and what about this awful ghastly

disease?

I've seen the adverts on the news and

with the gravestone.

Should I be worried about that?

No.

Jesus.

Everything is different now.

Adam's gaze hardens as he looks at his

mother.

Everything is different.

She looks down.

I guess I wouldn't know about that.

She lifts her gaze to Adam, who blinks.

He stares at his mother, who takes a

deep breath and glances away.

Your clothes will be dry now.

You can take these flapjacks with you if

you want.

I won't be eating them.

Back on the train, the window reflects Adam's

face as it speeds past the trees outside.

Later, Adam returns home.

Trudging into his apartment, he tosses his keys

aside and takes off his sweater.

He sits down and stares off wearily.

As he swallows, he winces a bit and

works his jaw.

He opens his door for Harry.

What's wrong?

Nothing.

I'm okay.

Just got a bit of a chill.

Hey.

You're hot.

Yeah.

I just got caught in the rain.

Okay.

Well, why don't I run you a hot

bath?

My nan says there's literally nothing a hot

bath couldn't solve.

I don't really like baths.

Fuck off.

Who doesn't like baths?

You don't need to be shy around me.

Yes.

It's easier said than done.

In the bathroom, Harry watches as Adam pulls

down his pants.

Adam grins bashfully at him.

Would you like me to close my eyes?

Yes, please.

Later, Adam lies in the tub.

Harry gently strokes his forehead.

I've been thinking about you all week today.

I was thinking about watching crappy TV with

you on a Friday night.

Eating takeaway on your sofa.

Watching old episodes of Top of the Pops

before I was born.

Thought about something else too.

Thought about fucking you.

I am?

Yeah.

Only that you fucking me, I don't really

care which.

I'm into that.

Adam meets Harry's gaze and nods.

Yeah.

It's okay if you're not real.

Don't need to be into fucking.

I wasn't for the longest time, for obvious

reasons.

Obvious reasons?

I felt that if I fucked anyone, I'd

die.

It's probably pretty difficult for you to imagine.

I'm not old.

Later in bed, Harry lies on top of

Adam.

Adam briefly lifts his head off the mattress,

then relaxes back.

As Harry sinks on top of him, Adam

grips the back of his head and his

bare back.

As their naked bodies move together, Adam slides

his hand toward the small of Harry's back,

then squeezes his rear.

As the two lovers kiss, Adam runs his

fingers through Harry's hair.

Later, Harry lies on his back while Adam

runs his hand up and down his chest.

You said the other day you don't see

your dad much.

Yeah.

How about your mom?

Yeah.

Yeah, same.

How come?

They know you're queer?

Yeah, of course.

Are you okay with this?

Yeah.

Okay.

I mean, they brought you to old school.

Probably less okay than everyone's meant to be.

Yeah.

But I got used to it, sort of.

Just don't say too much.

You could say that I have drifted to

the edge.

All right, up to the edge, almost.

Over the edge.

What's that mean?

Yeah, I'm on the edge of the family.

My sister and her kids.

My older brother just got married.

They've all got this spot in the centre.

That's okay.

Why is it okay?

Because I don't go home much.

Does that make you sad?

No, I think it's just inevitable, really.

Why?

I've always felt like a stranger in my

own family.

And then coming out just puts an end

to that difference.

It's always been there.

It's only in this.

It's not really anyone's fault.

The corners of Adam's lips lower into a

deep frown.

He shakes his head and blinks his teary

eyes.

What's wrong?

He scratches the bridge of his nose with

his thumb as he gazes off.

It's funny.

Things are better now.

Of course they are.

It doesn't take much to make you feel

the way you felt.

Back there again, it's game over all.

He gazes off with his head resting on

his arm.

Glancing at Harry, he rubs his eyes.

Are they still hot?

Harry touches his forehead.

It's a little.

Adam gazes toward Harry with a gentle smile,

then kisses his arm.

His knuckles and thumb graze the stubble on

Harry's chin.

Adam gives Harry's arm a squeeze and gazes

into his face.

You wanna stay the night?

With a happy chuckle, Harry nods.

Adam resumes rubbing his chest.

Daytime, the tower block stands tall against the

blue sky.

Now, Adam sits on the train, gazing out

the window as another train passes beside him.

He turns his gaze toward a father and

a 10-year-old boy seated side by

side.

The father smiles as he chats with people

seated across from him.

Frowning, the boy turns his gaze from the

window and looks at Adam.

Adam stares back a moment, then turns his

attention back to his window.

At his childhood home, Adam rings the bell.

Inside, Adam stands with his dad.

I'm sure she won't be long.

It's okay.

Just wanted to talk to her.

Yeah, I know you did.

His dad puts on a record.

This was your granddad's favourite.

I never really liked it much at the

time, but it's grounded me.

Adam picks up a figurine.

If you wanna see your mom really lose

her shit, go ahead and break that bloody

thing.

His dad sits down.

Come on, little lad, sit yourself down.

He lights a cigarette as Adam sits on

a sofa.

Avoiding eye contact, he blows out some smoke,

then lowers his gaze to his lap.

Adam watches him.

What she told you then?

I was scared he wouldn't come back.

But you know what your mom's like, you

know?

Don't be too disappointed in her.

No, I'm not.

She just needs to rearrange some things in

her head and all the stories that she's

built up.

She'll soon realise it's not actually about her.

Keeping his gaze locked on his dad, Adam

nods.

What about you?

What about me?

What do you think?

His dad shrugs.

I mean, it was hardly a shock.

I always knew you were a bit tooty

-frooty.

You couldn't throw a ball for shit no

matter how many times I tried to teach

you.

Jesus.

Couldn't for shit, couldn't for shit.

Make me sound like a horrible cliche.

Well, can you throw a ball?

Not at all.

Well, there you go.

Adam looks down and chuckles to himself.

Would you have liked me to have known?

I don't know.

I would hear you crying in your room

after school.

Did the boys bully you then?

Not just the boys.

What would they do?

Uh, call me a girl.

Ignore me, refuse to play with me, stick

my head down the toilet, flick drawing pens

in my face.

Exactly.

Yeah.

No.

No.

Gives you a little cancer on there.

Adam regards his father, his lips perched in

a small frown.

He shakes his head thoughtfully.

So why didn't you come into my room

and hear me crying?

Why didn't you tell me what was happening

at school?

You know, you answer me first.

Be honest.

I just didn't want to think of you

as the kind of boy that the other

lads would pick on.

And, uh, I knew that if I was

at your school, I'd probably pick on you

too.

Yeah, I think I always probably thought that

anyway.

Probably why I didn't tell you what was

happening to me at school.

Adam's father shrugs his shoulder a bit and

takes another drag from his cigarette.

He stands and takes the needle off the

record.

You know, when she told me, it did

make me think about all the jokes that

we make.

You know, we did impressions of your English

teacher when he'd mince around with his limp

wrist.

And you told me not to cross my

legs like a woman over and over and

over again.

Did I?

Yeah, I still think about it every time

I cross my legs.

I have good memories too.

I hope so.

Okay, I hope so.

I hope you did.

Remember, you used to love decorating the tree.

You were crazy for us every year.

And you'd always let me put the finger

on top of the tree.

They both smile a little.

Adam's smile fades as he watches his father.

Keeping his head bowed, Adam's father looks down

at the floor and rubs his brow.

He rubs his moustache and faces Adam while

keeping his gaze averted.

I'm sorry I never gave any room when

you were crying.

No, really, it's okay.

Let's not get there, Elizabeth.

It's not, Dad.

Dad, I get it.

It was so long.

It was so long.

Stop.

Adam covers his face with his hands.

His father's jaw twitches emotionally.

He stands and looks down at his son

who continues to hide his face.

Can I hug you now?

Yeah, please.

Adam stands and his dad envelops him in

a loving embrace.

You're all right, son.

You're all right.

You're all right.

Adam stares over his father's shoulder into a

mirror.

In the reflection, his father embraces his younger

self and kisses the top of his head.

Later, the train speeds alongside tracks.

Adam gazes out the window with a serene

expression.

Later at home, Adam removes Harry's jacket and

backs him against a wall wearing a lascivious

grin.

He unbuckles Harry's belt.

After this...

Now Adam walks alone down the street.

I want to go home.

You and me.

Together.

On a tube train, Adam rubs Harry's arm.

Into the world.

Later, Harry follows Adam into a crowded nightclub.

Adam glances back at Harry and says something,

then moves on.

They squeeze their way through a crowd of

dancing bodies.

Reaching a bar, Adam turns and speaks into

Harry's ear.

What do you want to drink?

A bartender hands two pints to Adam.

He gives one to Harry, and they make

their way back through the packed club.

Harry bumps into a few people as he

passes.

Oh, sorry.

You want a drink?

Sorry.

They find a seat by a mirror lit

by a strip of red light.

Later, Adam returns to their seats with more

drinks.

Oh, come on, you're going to miss this.

I can't hear you.

So do you dance?

For who I set it up?

Let's get wasted enough.

Each down the shot and suck on a

lime wedge, Harry stands up.

Come on.

He pulls Adam up and with their fingers

entwined, they disappear into a sea of dancing

bodies.

Later, Adam grins at Harry as he bounces

to the beat.

And the club goers with raised arms, Adam

and Harry move to the music.

Adam opens his mouth in a joyful smile

and throws his hands into the air.

Now, Harry locks him in a bathroom stall

and takes out a tiny baggie of white

powder.

Where'd you get this?

I found it in my wallet.

Fuck knows how long it's been there.

Using a key, he scoops the powder and

sniffs it into his nose.

Adam sniffs some as well.

I think that's cat beat.

Oh, really?

Have you done it before?

No.

You look after me.

They kiss passionately against the wall.

Back on the dance floor, Adam stares glassy

-eyed, his lips in a tight oak shape.

In front of him, Harry smiles as he

dances in slow motion.

The images of their faces merge together briefly.

Harry's form blurs together with other people dancing

around him.

Now in a shadowy corner of the bar,

Adam and Harry hold each other close.

A stream of light silhouettes them as they

kiss passionately, their hands caressing one another.

Their image blurs into those of people on

the dance floor, then to light bouncing off

a disco ball and beams that cut through

the smoky air.

To another party As Harry dances, Adam watches

him, his head tilted slightly to one side,

his gaze drifts.

Now Adam and Harry lie together in bed.

Harry talks, moving his hand animatedly.

Morning, Adam wakes in his bed next to

a snoozing Harry.

Later in the kitchen, Harry stirs eggs in

a pan.

Behind him, Adam comes from around a corner,

putting on a robe.

Later, Adam lounges on his sofa, typing on

his laptop.

He looks across the room to Harry, who

reads as a record spins on a turntable.

Now a band plays on the TV.

Harry sits on the sofa munching on a

slice of pizza.

Adam lies with his head resting on Harry's

lap.

The caption on the TV reads, Frankie goes

to Hollywood, the power of love.

In the bathroom, Harry brushes his teeth while

Adam dries the back of Harry's neck and

shoulders with a towel.

Sitting on the floor in front of the

window, Adam and Harry each select a small

piece of something from a jar.

They eat it.

As they gaze into each other's eyes, Harry

smiles.

At night, Adam sits up watching TV as

Harry sleeps with his head on his lap.

Adam strokes Harry's hair.

In bed, the two of them sleep with

their backs to each other.

Now Adam sits up in bed alone.

He looks out at the city lights outside

his window.

He lowers his feet to the floor and

steps toward the window.

He enters the nightclub.

Clubgoers move listlessly to music.

Adam walks among them, searching the crowd.

A shirtless young man walking in the opposite

direction saddles up close past Adam, and they

smile slyly at one another.

Adam moves on, searching the crowd in the

strobing light.

He nearly bumps into a young woman as

he catches himself on a pole.

He woosily closes his eyes and stretches his

neck.

As he regains his balance, he catches his

reflection in the mirror and sees Harry standing

behind him.

Adam smiles at him.

Suddenly, his smile fades.

He shuts his eyes and wobbles unsteadily on

his feet.

Adam lets out a primal scream.

Harry disappears.

Now in bed, Adam's eyes open.

He shifts under the pastel striped sheets and

his hand brushes against a small wooden headboard

with stickers on it.

As he runs his fingers along the wall,

his arm turns into that of a child

wearing pyjamas.

Now Adam walks downstairs in his childhood home

in stockinged feet in a bathrobe.

He pauses at the bottom, his hands on

the bannister.

Tinsel garlands hang on a wall of family

photos.

Adam approaches a closed door and slowly pushes

it open.

Inside, he finds his parents decorating a Christmas

tree.

Adam, what's wrong?

His mother feels his face.

Oh, you're really hot.

Harry's really hot.

His dad puts the back of his hand

against Adam's forehead.

He gives Adam an ornament.

Squeeze in, squeeze in, squeeze in.

Adam joins his parents around the tree.

He looks at the tree for a moment

and sits down on the floor and adds

the ornament to a lower branch.

His mother looks down toward him.

Tears fill her eyes.

I'm so sorry I was blind.

You were always on my mind.

You were always on my mind.

Tell me, tell me that your sweet love

isn't done.

Adam's dad holds up the angel tree topper

with a playful shake.

Adam grins.

One more chance to keep you satisfied, satisfied.

He stands up and adds the angel to

the top of the tree.

Adam's mother gives him a kiss on the

cheek as his dad sets up a camera

on a tripod.

Okay, get together.

Yeah, yeah, you ready?

I'm going to impress it.

Adam's dad quickly joins them in front of

the tree.

Adam puts his arm around him as they

pose.

He's fantastic.

Merry Christmas.

Merry Christmas.

There you go.

As the camera flashes, a photograph shows young

Adam posing in front of the tree with

his parents.

The photo fades into the Frankie Goes to

Hollywood music video.

Now Adam lies in his childhood bed.

Is this real?

Does it feel real?

Yeah.

There you go then.

For how long though?

I can't answer that.

I suppose we don't get to decide when

it's over.

His mother leans down and gives him a

gentle kiss on the forehead.

He holds on to her hand.

You're not going out now, are you?

Where would we go?

The Walsh's.

The Walsh's?

The Walsh's?

No, no, wait.

You promised me you're not going to go

out now.

I promise.

We're just going to be asleep next door.

His mother nods.

I promise.

Adam's eyes narrow.

Get some sleep.

She shuts off his bedside lamp.

Adam watches her leave the room.

He quickly lifts his head off the pillow.

He tries to settle back down.

He rubs his face.

In the hall.

What is this we are?

Adam stands outside a bedroom door.

I can't sleep.

He slowly pushes open the door.

His mother lies awake beside his sleeping father.

Do you want to get in?

Can I?

Of course you can.

She pats her husband's shoulder and he groggily

rolls over to the far side of the

bed.

Adam climbs in between them and gets under

the covers.

He settles down on his side, facing his

mother, who lies on her back, eyes open.

It still smells the same in here.

You'd creep in here night after night saying

you couldn't sleep.

You're always scared of something.

Murderers breaking in or rabies or nuclear war.

Do people still get rabies?

No.

Oh.

I was desperate for you to grow up

just so I could get a good night's

sleep.

She shuts her eyes.

Adam watches her.

Sorry.

What are you sorry for?

She turns her head to face him.

I'm the sorry one.

Should have realised you're driving me bananas.

She smiles warmly at him.

His lips lift in a small smile.

She shifts onto her side so they can

lie face to face.

Where did you go?

You know, afterwards.

Lived with Granny.

She took me to Dublin.

Yeah, I thought so.

Why didn't you live with his lot?

Why didn't you live with Granny May?

They said she was too heartbroken.

About what?

Well, she'd lost her son.

Oh, I see.

But my mother was fine about losing her

only daughter.

No, no.

She was not fine.

I just can't believe that she got to

look after you and I didn't.

Are any of them still around now?

Adam shakes his head.

No.

No, they wouldn't be, would they?

Then how did you get on over there

with Mum?

Did you manage to fit in better at

school?

I made sure I did.

He shuts his eyes and settles more into

the pillow he shares with his mother.

I hate that we weren't around when you

needed us most, Will.

And I hate even more that I wasn't

there before that, not really.

No, that's not true.

Oh, come on.

I was hardly Mother of the Year, was

I?

But I like to think that I would

have got better at it in time.

You know, given time.

You know, when I was a teenager, or

even later, into my 20s, I used to

plot it all out.

Do you mean?

What we might have done together.

In intricate detail.

Trips to the Whitgift Centre.

Birthdays.

Trips to London.

The Planetarium.

The London Dungeon.

Oh, I always wanted to go there.

I know.

There were holidays that we might have gone

on together.

Oh, did we make it to Disneyland?

We did.

When I was 14.

It rained non-stop.

And they shut down Space Mountain.

And we fought every day.

Why did we have to fight?

Because that's what everyone did with their parents.

They fought and bickered and pretended that they

were ruining each other's lives.

Did we make up?

No, we didn't need to make up.

We were together.

So.

So did Mother.

Gazing into Adam's eyes, she puts her hand

on his face and strokes his cheek with

her thumb.

You okay?

A hand reaches out to his shoulder from

behind.

No.

You're okay, son.

Adam takes his mother's hand in his and

with his other hand grips the one on

his shoulder.

As he feels the fingers, his eyes widen

and he turns to find Harry behind him.

You're okay.

Adam turns more to face him.

Are you two in here?

You're not supposed to be here.

Harry kisses Adam.

They hold each other's faces in their hands

as they kiss.

Adam smiles.

Adam's smile quickly fades as a faint blue

light flashes over them.

He looks at Harry with a quizzical expression,

then turns back over to find his mother

gone.

He puts his hand on the pillow where

her head had been.

He turns over and finds Harry gone.

He stares up at the ceiling.

Suddenly, Adam wakes with a start on the

train.

He breathes hard as people on a station

platform walk past his window.

He sees Harry walk past.

Harry meets Adam's gaze as he continues walking.

In the station, Harry trots down a flight

of stairs.

Far behind him, Adam hurries to catch up.

As he moves briskly, Adam's gaze shifts to

posters on the wall denouncing drinking and driving.

He boards an underground train.

Holding onto a pole, he scans the people

in the car.

His jaw tense, Adam looks around with a

disconcerted gaze.

Turning his head, he spots Harry through a

doorway in the next car over.

As a passenger shifts in front of the

door, Harry disappears.

Adam's brow furrows and he swallows hard.

He covers his mouth with his elbow.

He makes his way over to an empty

seat and sits while trying to cover his

hacking cough.

He woosily tilts his head back and feels

his forehead with the back of his hand.

In front of him, his reflection in the

dark window stretches as he covers his ears.

The reflection changes to that of his younger

self.

Adam lurches trying to hold in more coughs.

His young reflection screams.

Adam wakes up in his own bed beside

Harry.

You look so scared.

Adam stares wide-eyed into the distance.

Hey, come here, come here.

Harry pulls him into a tight embrace.

I'm here, it's okay.

You're okay.

A view from the living room through the

bedroom doorway shows Harry with Adam in the

bed.

I was sleeping in their bed the night

they went out.

I was meant to go with them to

Christmas drinks at the Walsh's.

Now Adam stands in the shower.

Around midnight, two police came to the door,

a man and a woman.

Later, he stands in front of the mirror,

gazing off.

He had really beautiful, kind eyes and this

thick, dark stubble.

It looked like it had been drawn on.

The car skidded on black ice.

Both of them had been drinking.

He sits on the sofa with Harry.

Dad was killed right away, but they took

mum to St Mary's in Croydon and she

died a few days later.

Did you get to see her?

What, do you mean, she didn't say goodbye?

Mm-hmm, yeah.

No, my granny told her it would be

too scarring.

Mum went through the windscreen and she lost

an eye, so she was pretty fucked up.

Jesus.

Yeah.

I went looking for that eye.

I don't know why.

I didn't want anyone else to find it.

I thought it would be on the side

of the road.

Staring up at me.

I did find a tiny piece of the

windscreen glass then.

Adam lowers his gaze.

My head had had blood on it, but

maybe that's not true.

The nurse said that mum woke up just

before she died.

I must have been so confused, I could

hardly see.

Dad wasn't there, I wasn't there.

I can't even begin to imagine how you

felt.

How lonely you must have been.

Yeah, but I'd always felt lonely, even before.

This is a new feeling.

Like terror.

That I'd always be alone now.

And then as I got older, that feeling

just solidified.

Just a knot here all the time.

And then losing them, I just got tangled

up with all the other stuff.

About being gay.

It's just a feeling like the future doesn't

matter.

Adam looks off, shaking his head.

Harry stares distantly.

Does that make sense?

He lifts his teary eyes to Adam and

nods.

Yeah.

I know how easy it can be to

stop caring about yourself.

He puts his hand on Adam's shoulder.

Yeah.

Adam reaches toward him and Harry smiles a

little.

Adam lowers his gaze with a pained look

on his face.

Adam.

He shakes his head a little then lifts

his gaze to meet Harry's.

Will you come with me?

Where to?

Just let me show you.

Adam cups Harry's face in his hand and

gently rubs his ear.

Later, Harry and Adam sit next to each

other on the train.

Harry stares out the window with his curled

fingers to his lips.

Reflected in the glass, Adam turns to look

at him.

Harry glances at Adam then returns his stare

to the window.

At night, Adam rings the doorbell at his

childhood home.

Whose house is this?

My parents.

Yeah.

Who lives here now?

Adam smiles and pats Harry's shoulder.

It's okay.

Don't worry.

Adam waits staring at the door then heads

around a bush and peers into a window.

He knocks on the glass.

Hello?

Adam.

Harry shifts uncomfortably.

Adam heads back around the bush and pushes

through a side gate.

Harry follows him to a closed side door.

Hello?

Where are they?

Who?

Adam heads around a corner to the back

of the house.

Hello?

Who?

My parents.

This is our house.

This is our kitchen.

This is our wallpaper.

That's our table where we had fish and

chips every Friday night so my mother could

pretend we were still Catholic.

Adam, I want to go home.

Let me take you home.

This is my home.

No, it used to be.

Mum!

Adam!

Dad!

Adam, please let me take you home.

Look, you go home.

You go home.

I'm not going.

Adam bangs on a French door.

Where are they?

Mum?

Dad!

Harry goes to stop him but his gaze

catches on something inside.

Can you see them?

Wide-eyed, Harry backs away from Adam and

the door.

Inside, Adam's parents' ghostly forms stand motionless staring

at them.

Please.

Please let me in.

Please let me in.

Adam's fist breaks the glass.

Now, Adam lies on his side.

His eyes blink open.

He looks up at his uninjured hand.

We're not allowing him to get in.

It's not normal.

It's too soon.

It's not normal.

Why didn't you let us in?

His parents turn away from a window and

toward Adam.

Where is he?

Is he here?

Is Harry here?

No.

We did see him though.

His mum sits down on the edge of

the bed.

I wanted you to meet him.

I know but I don't think this works

like that.

You look like a handsome fella though.

Is he your special friend?

Do you mean my boyfriend?

Is he my boyfriend?

If you could say it.

Okay, well is he your boyfriend?

Um...

I don't know.

Adam's dad sits down beside his wife.

Are you in love with him?

Why is that so strange?

I don't know.

I've never been in love before so...

Not really.

So this...

I don't know if this is it.

Sweetheart.

Well he certainly seems to care about you

a whole heap.

In my not so humble opinion.

As his dad turns to face him, Adam

nods.

You think he'd like to be in love

with him?

Adam blinks then meets his dad's gaze and

nods again.

They share a smile.

As his dad turns away, his smile fades

and his eyes grow teary.

His mother looks away from Adam as well.

Adam sits up more in bed and looks

at them.

They bow their heads.

Adam's dad turns toward him.

Sorry, I think we need to...

No, don't say it.

Adam covers his dad's mouth.

Please don't say it.

We have to.

We have to.

Me and your mum...

We think that it's best you don't come

visit us anymore.

Just gonna keep coming and coming.

I know you are.

We can see what this is doing to

you.

It's not doing anything to me.

Yes, it is.

I won't let you move on.

Okay, well I'll come less.

I'll come once a year.

I'll come on Christmas.

Come on, lad.

You have to have known that this wasn't

gonna last forever.

I'm not asking for it to last forever.

I'm just...

It hasn't been long enough.

It hasn't been close to long enough.

Tears well up in Adam's eyes and he

puts his face in his hands.

I know, but it never could be, could

it?

Adam's father crosses his arms and his mother

turns her gaze back toward the window.

Adam's dad stares thoughtfully toward the ceiling.

He shifts closer to Adam.

Listen, I've got an idea.

How's about...

How's about we go to your favourite place

in the whole bloody world?

I'm sure it's still open.

It's the next best thing to Disneyland.

It's fucking cheaper too.

I think.

Later, a car travels past a sign for

an American diner.

Inside a nearby empty shopping mall, Adam and

his parents approach an escalator going up to

the second floor.

They ride up under a high glass ceiling.

Later, Adam sits in a restaurant booth facing

his parents.

He smiles up toward a waitress.

Uh, can I get the family special, please?

It's a lot of food.

That's okay.

As the waitress steps away, Adam nervously rubs

his knuckles together.

I'm really very hungry.

No, me neither.

His dad looks down at the table and

his mother gazes at Adam with a furrowed

brow.

I want to ask you something.

God, no, don't ask.

I'm going to ask him.

Was it quick?

Oh, Jesus, I told you not to ask.

You want to know.

But what if it was slow and horribly

painful?

It's a big difference.

It was quick.

Was it?

Yeah.

For both of us?

No, you don't seem sure.

Don't be fibbing now.

It was quick.

It was really quick.

She breathes a sigh of relief.

Oh, okay.

Yeah, well, that's a relief, isn't it?

Sorts.

It's been playing on my mind, that is.

Adam nods a little and looks down at

his hands.

You think we should say to each other?

I'm not sure I have much wisdom to

share.

I don't know, maybe Adam being older should

be sharing some with us.

Maybe we shouldn't say anything.

Maybe.

Although I will say that getting to know

you has made us very proud, son.

Adam shakes his head.

I haven't done anything to be proud of.

I've just muddled through.

Yeah, but you got through some tough times,

I'm sure.

You're still here.

And that's what we're proud of.

His mother nods in agreement as they both

gaze at Adam.

Yeah.

Adam looks from his dad to his mom

and back again.

Dad, stay.

Stay.

Stay a bit longer.

No, I don't think so, son.

I love you, darling.

His mother leans in close to her husband.

You do?

He tilts his head toward her.

Sometimes I wasn't so sure.

Whatever problems we had, I'm glad we got

to be together at the end.

He nods and she kisses his cheek.

His brow wrinkles emotionally.

I know I was never good at saying

it.

Just couldn't get the words out.

He stares at Adam.

I do love you very much.

Somehow even more now that I know you.

Adam smiles at his dad.

He bows his head.

His dad reaches across the table and squeezes

his hand.

It's important that you believe me.

I do.

I know I love you very much.

Dad?

Dad?

Dad, did you hear that?

Oh, Adam, are you there?

I can't see you.

Why can't I see you?

Adam's eyes glisten.

I'm here, mom.

They hold hands.

Oh, there you are.

She gives them a squeeze.

I can feel you.

Your skin's lovely and warm.

Will you listen?

You promised me that you were going to

try with this Harry boy.

Yeah.

I'd have liked him.

I know it.

He might need a bit of taking care

of, mind you.

He's got such a sad face.

Do you hear me?

Yeah, yeah, I hear you.

That's good.

I hope you make each other a bit

happier.

Your face lowers and she blinks.

Smiling, Adam shakes his head and a tear

rolls down his cheek.

His mother gazes across the table, her eyes

glassy and distant.

Such a kind and gentle boy.

Lips parted, she stares with an unfocused gaze.

She leans back against her seat.

As Adam watches her, his eyes brim with

tears.

The waitress approaches.

Adam moves his arms from the table and

sits back, tears staining his cheeks.

He glances up at the waitress as she

sets down three milkshakes and some food.

Enjoy.

Thank you.

As the waitress steps away, Adam blinks at

the three shakes lined up before him.

His face tenses emotionally.

Now trees blur past in front of a

low golden sun.

Adam sits on the train staring ahead.

He turns to the window and watches the

scenery go by.

Nighttime.

A red full moon hangs over the city.

In the apartment building's lift, Adam presses the

button for the sixth floor.

As he waits, he looks at his reflection

in the mirrored wall.

He turns back to face the doors, a

small smile tugging at his lips.

The floor indicator shows a six.

As the doors slide open, Adam frowns.

His eyes shift, and he steps slowly off

the lift into the hall.

He gazes down the long corridor to his

left, then turns to his right and starts

walking.

He heads toward an apartment at the end

of the hall with slow, measured steps.

A small sign on the wall reads 607.

Adam steps slow, and he tilts his head

toward the door.

He slowly presses down on the handle and

opens the apartment door.

As he steps inside, his nose wrinkles, and

he holds up his hand in front of

his nose and mouth.

Leaving the door open behind him, Adam walks

further into the apartment.

His jaw hangs slack as his gaze scans

the living room.

He notices some clothing strewn across the sofa.

He lifts the sleeve of a denim top

then sets it back down as his gaze

continues to search the room.

He crosses to a table near a TV,

playing static.

Adam picks up a tiny baggie like the

one from the nightclub bathroom.

He turns it in his fingers, then shifts

his attention to the TV.

He hits a button on a remote.

Adam's gaze fixes on a closed door on

the other side of the TV.

Jaw-tied, he slowly moves toward it.

As he reaches the pocket door, he lifts

his knuckles.

Adam slides the door open, peeks inside, then

quickly turns away and shuts the door.

Keeping his head turned from the door, Adam

shuts his eyes and works his mouth nauseatedly.

Stealing himself, he slowly turns back toward the

door and slides it open again.

As he steps inside, he covers his mouth

with the back of his hand.

He takes a few slow steps into the

room, his unblinking gaze fixed on something before

him.

Still covering his mouth, he lowers himself onto

the edge of a bed.

He lowers his hand from his face as

he takes in a body lying in the

clothes Harry was wearing the first night they

met.

Adam lifts the empty liquor bottle.

He studies it with a confused and despondent

expression.

He sets the bottle down and puts his

hand on Harry's hip.

His fingers rest near Harry's lifeless hand.

Adam bows his head sorrowfully.

He turns his attention toward the open bedroom

door.

He stands and steps back out into the

living room.

Lingering by the door, he looks toward the

kitchen and shifts on his feet.

Harry stares back at him, the liquor bottle

in his hand.

What are you doing down here?

Adam slides the bedroom door shut.

I came to find you.

Harry steps closer, rubbing his stomach.

Why are you here?

Adam blinks his teary eyes.

I said goodbye to them so I came

to see you.

Harry agitatedly rubs his chest and turns away.

Adam shakes his head.

It's okay.

It's not okay though, is it?

Harry lifts the hand holding the bottle with

a shrug.

He looks down at the bottle and tilts

his head.

I was so scared that night.

I just needed to not be alone.

I know.

Adam steps up close to Harry and looks

him in the eyes.

I'm sorry.

I was too scared to let you in.

Harry lowers his gaze.

He shifts his gaze toward the bedroom door.

I'm in there, aren't I?

Let's just go upstairs.

No, no, no, no, no.

I just need you to tell me, okay?

I can smell it.

I can taste it in my throat.

Wincing, Harry shakes his head.

How come no one found me?

Harry searches Adam's face.

It was my mom and my dad.

I found you.

No, but, Adam, I don't want you to

see me like that in there.

Adam cups Harry's face.

With me.

Eyes brimming with tears, Adam gives a reassuring

smile.

Let's just go upstairs.

Harry relaxes into a smile as Adam gently

strokes his cheek.

They kiss.

Adam looks Harry in the eye and smiles.

Now they lie on their sides in bed,

facing each other.

Adam runs his fingertips through the hair on

the top of Harry's head.

I saw her, you know, your mom, your

dad, too, at the house.

They saw you, too.

They did?

Mm-hmm.

Mm-hmm.

My dad said you were a handsome fellow.

They loved you.

They both would.

Of course.

Of course.

She got to say what she wanted to

say.

I don't know.

I got to be with her.

It's good that you're all together.

Yeah.

They each blink as they gaze lovingly into

each other's eyes.

I'm scared.

I know.

But I'm here with you.

Don't let this get tangled up again.

Okay, come on.

It's so quiet.

I never could stand how quiet this place

was.

Well, you've got a record on.

What would you like?

Yeah, you choose.

I'll protect you from the Hooded Crow.

Keep the vampires from your door.

As Adam lies with Harry curled up in

his arms, the view draws up in a

way.

They keep bad at bay, bad at bay.

Love is bright, scaring darkness away.

I'm so in love with you, purge your

soul.

Make love your goal.

The power's from above.

Their entwined forms grow smaller and smaller as

the view drifts higher above them.

Flame on, burn, desire.

Love with tongues of fire.

Purge the soul.

Make love your goal.

Dozens of faint stars gradually begin to appear

around the bright circle of light in a

nighttime sky.

I'll protect you from the Hooded Crow.

Keep the vampires from your door.

When the chips are down, I'll be around

with my undying hand.

Let yourself be beautiful.

Sparkling love, flowers and pearls and pretty girls.

Crushing and crushing inside of me.

The power.

This time we go sublime.

Love pleasure.

Love is pure, the only treasure.

I'm so in love with you, purge the

soul.

Make love your goal.

The power's

from above.

A skyscraping girl.

With tongues

of fire.

Purge the soul.

Make love your goal.

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